getting to know myself is singlehandedly the best thing i’ve ever done. while many people were busy getting degrees & stable jobs & long-term lovers & very important titles & fancy houses & favorable reputations, all i ever wanted to do is sit with the trees in solitude and ask my soul what she wants to do. nothing seemed more significant than understanding every nook, cranny & crevice of my soul.
i am the only person responsible for my happiness, so i need to know who i am & what i want in order to make wise decisions & do what’s best for me. when i do what’s best for me, i don’t rely on others to fulfill my needs or make me happy. as a result, my relationships/friendships are free of codependency and hold space for absolute honesty.
i study me in ways many people study subjects or hobbies or other people. i wake up each morning eager to learn, knowing personal growth is dependent on my willingness to be present in each moment & stay true to myself at all times, even when it is inconvenient.
i am a student of life and continually choose experience as my teacher. i learn lessons on my own time, in my own way & need to be stimulated on a soul level to remain interested in activities, relationships and conversations.
small talk bores me & structure designed by others makes me feel claustrophobic, so i spend a lot of time alone listening to my soul & giving her total freedom to move through the day exactly as she wishes. no rules. no schedule. no plans. my soul tells me what i am doing & when i am doing it. she is the leader of my life. i am just along for the ride.
and what a wild fucking ride it’s been.
i love you.
xo,
zella